Solitary

Some of my favorite experiences as a geek have come from sharing my love of something with others. As a teenager I wrote notes back and forth to one of my mothers coworkers about our love of X Files. I remember sitting in my first panel at a convention listening to other people chatter about Stargate. Sitting at loads of midnight premieres, excitedly waiting for a movie to start in a theater filled with fellow fans. I love being able to share my passions with other people.

Unfortunately, my social geekiness has decreased lately. I haven't been to a con in years. My real life fannish friends and I have drifted apart. Even those people in my life that allowed me to cajole them into watching sci-fi shows have stopped being so agreeable. (with the exception of the Marvel movies...everybody loves superheroes!) Maybe it's a sign of getting older; everybody seems to be moving away from the love of comic books and robots and aliens. I mean, I still love all these things but as my 20's dwindled away it became harder to find geeky peers.

Of course I still have the internet. Which is a lonely geeks best friend. I can always scroll Tumblr to find tons of people who are interested in my fandoms or hit up Reddit to discuss an episode. I've mined Youtube to watch vids (nerdfighters!) and get sucked into new interests. There are thousands of places to go on the internet to find content, conversation, pics, vids, rp, reviews, spoilers and more. I love the internet and, as a geek, I do find fellowship there. Sometimes I just wish I had more of that in real life.

In the past week I finally got caught up with Doctor Who and watched the Christmas special. That's right, I hadn't even watched the Christmas special yet! Doctor Who makes me so happy but it just made me sad that I didn't have anyone to watch and geek out with in real life. I had convinced someone to watch one or two of the of first 11th Doctor episodes, but beyond that I had been watching it by myself. And while I did have people on the internet to chat with, I really enjoy shows/movies more when I watch them with someone else. Eventually I just gave up and watched these episodes of Doctor Who by myself. They were good and I liked them and I immediately went to Reddit and Tumblr to interact with fans and discuss and talk about things, but there was a part of me that still feels sad that I had to watch it alone.